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繁琐

2011-12-04T09:02:00.003+08:00

繁琐事如夜里的星空，少了明月的照亮缭乱不一，

让人迷失焦点。

少了皎月，但如有一划而过的流星也不错，

至少可在繁琐中画出一道光芒。

有那么一本书

2011-11-23T10:56:00.003+08:00

实不相瞒，我如厕有阅读的习惯；

更牛逼的是那滚瓜烂熟乘法表是小时候在如厕时勤练出来的。

我阅读既可以是考试前夕的笔记，小说，报纸到杂志等等。

可是，

有那么一本书可以让我无论从那一页开始阅读然后感觉上那一页都是同一本书新的故事的开始。

书本里头的故事好像不会因为你没有看过前章而显得正在阅读的这章下文不接上文。

所以，就要踏上第二十个年头的岁月里，

那本书都是满满的折痕。

那本书是因为当初有人介绍我才去翻阅的，

无可否认书的笔者有着流畅的文笔，一刀而入的感情细腻描绘。

一段很普通的对话，可以因为他写的很有感情而升华到感动。

他更可以将一些你我惯用的形容词运用在你我平常不会形容的人事物。

凭空想象文章的情景足以让你感觉到那一丝丝的氛围弥漫在你四周（虽然在厕所有点恶，但重点不是厕所）。

好景不长，如厕的时间犹如夕阳西下的那一刻，总是短暂的。

但至少我享受那短暂的氛围，感动。

就是有那么一本书而不是一首歌。

他妈的

2011-11-21T22:54:00.004+08:00

我很羡慕那些可以用文字来畅所欲言的人，因为通过书写他们可以表达自己的感受可以抒发。

相对于我，在这方面逊色不少。

曾经多番尝试去运用文字来表达自己但结果并不是想象中简单和到位，

往往就欠缺那一道切割点而胎死腹中。

我何尝不渴望让它看看这五光十色的世界。

很多时候就是这样，思绪在脑袋打滚的当儿，却连一句完整的句子都从组不到。

我了解自己并不是很开的人，

要聊心底话除非我和你的心距不远不然你永远不懂我在烦·惆怅和懊恼什么。

我可以是很好的聆听者但有些事情我真的不懂如何去开解它，

因为我一样有着类似但不同的情况。

很多时候当我不想目睹一些会让我郁闷的情况，

我会选择离开。

我觉得不是逃避，因为这一开始并不是一个问题。

我想这是一种自我保护的戒备，为了不要碰触到不必要的伤感。

这也可能是不懂要给什么反应的最好反应。

听起来好像很抽象似的，但这可是很具体很写实的状况。

感觉很负，无可奈何这是当下的心情。

请你离开吧。

看到的与看不到的

2011-10-12T00:13:00.002+08:00

看到的不一定是真实的全部；

往往你就是会忽略那不显眼却重要的那一点而酿成不堪入目的结果。

宁愿看不到，至少不至于不堪入目；

因为少了规则的轮廓，那一点瑕疵算不了什么。

真的累了，倦了，厌了那规则的五线谱；

还我，真我。

我不是我

2011-10-08T21:37:00.002+08:00

徘徊

2011-09-30T00:46:00.003+08:00

徘徊，
这感觉像女生月经周期般似的再度光临。
即懊恼又无可奈何。
但，相对起来她来去无影无终，有的时候还会发神经似的天天光临。

既然她来临无数次，
我还是不知道她出现的目的。
显然的，我对她还是无知的。

徘徊，
总是充满着未知数。
因为如此，我有点对她着迷；
往往，会有意想不到的结果。

既然是未知数，
那又何必介意她的到来？
该来的时候，她会来；
自然的，她也会有离开远去的时候。

我
等待妳的离开也盼望妳的到来。

predictably fragile

2011-09-11T23:24:00.000+08:00

this is not the first time i come across this issue.
relationship is predictably fragile.
if you wanna make a analogy, relationship is adequate to a fetus that often miscarriage without proper care and skills.

i surely can't comment much about this relationship topic as i was and i am still a failure in this context.
but what i can assure myself is, relationship take a lot of effort creating such a chain.
its not easy for two persons to get together. i treasure what i got and i appreciate what i have.

sometime, you just don't understand how people can broke up with their so called "for your own good"'s reason.
i can't analyse and can't digest the whole idea. what on earth provide you such a position to say so, you are not his/her parent; moreover i bet she/he isn't an underage kid that know nothing that suit him/her the best.
whenever people think of breaking up, they always forget what makes them get into relationship.
why? i have no reason yet. sooner or later i'm going to figure it out.

tbc.

知多少

2011-09-09T12:04:00.003+08:00

你对你身旁的人事物，知多少？

能与你倾心而谈的朋友，又有哪几个？
倾心而谈，又会把自己揭开到那一面；最底那一面还是最表面？
其实不管那面都好，至少他/她还当你是朋友圈子内的圈子。

那到底是拉面，淋面还是板面呢？

何谓秘密？
个人认为，能与大众分享的秘密都不算秘密；
少于三个人知道的方算秘密。

知道了，多一份亲切感；
不知道，多了一份神秘感。
知道与否没分好与坏，只是多了份感觉。

你的朋友到底给了你什么感觉。

至少是自由的

2011-09-04T00:03:00.003+08:00

单身；
是自由的写照，至少是自由的。
享受自由的沐浴是喜是悲，并没有一个固定的时间表。
有的时候喜，有的时候悲。
有期待，悲大于喜；没期待，喜大于悲。
顺其自然则悲喜参半。

那个男人？那个男人？
那个女人？那个女人？
那和那，两字虽外形无异；却，藉着不同的发音而背着十万八千里的异意。

现阶段，
我可以当掉我的自由，也可以拥抱我的自由。

哈哈，偶尔想想也不错。

move on

2011-08-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

i'm back.
the current hot topic: move on
noticed that people around me need to have a step forward to move on.
mainly, regarding their relationship issue.
some of them, desperately need to get away from the situation yet dragging themselves back to the swamp; while the others trying so hard to move on via forget.

move on, inevitably easier say than done.
but never try never know, right?
between walk out with pride and begging for pride; i choose the first one.
at least i able preserve my dignity, even doesn't left much; and his/her dignity as well, because it is not just about you alone.
being loyalty is not a bad thing but overly loyal doesn't retained the initial intention right? so as the outcome, mostly.

probably, a sweet escape can be substituted with if guts are not enough to move on yet.
be frankly, i think i need one.
Relax, what kind of relax do you prefer? a movie? a trip? or a pillow talk?
i opt for everything, greedy isn't a barrier to relieve myself.

i started to move on.
maybe, you should consider about it too.
don't weigh one thing more than another, a fair balancing might bring you a better outcome. i cant assure how far it is true but i experience it.

move on. =)

吞不下的滋味

2011-07-05T12:16:00.001+08:00

吞不下，
咽不下。

不是你能够理解的

2011-05-30T01:38:00.003+08:00

最近丧失了表达的能力。
很多时候，想要表达的想法在左右脑徘徊的一瞬间就截住了。

看来真嘅“丧”咗。

饿字当头。

your strongest enemy

2011-05-23T00:21:00.002+08:00

it is way too much to sacrifice to learn a lesson.
nothing is worth regretable, self blaming woudn't help up.
my biggest and strongest enemy is myself,
should have realised it earlier but it is not too late to figure it out afterall.
what had passed is gone, you cant do anything with it.

sucks 2

2011-04-25T00:14:00.005+08:00

how on earth this kind of people can appear in my friend list?
i dont get it, seriously...
admitting that i'm a stupid person afterall...
this feeling inclined towards betrayed rather than disappointed...
its crucial to find a true friend... what determined a "true" friend...
a true friend will be there for you no matters what, they will be there especially you are helpless and they are they one who offer their hands to you...
what constituted a "truly true friend" between two parties, i guessed it should be pratice in a bilateral manner... just as those relationhsip between couples...
being a true friend to others doesnt cement a "truly true friend" state...
on top of it, someone might taking advantages on you like a irratating leech sucking you bit by bit and they leave you when they are satisfied themselve!
dont you realised you are doing this at the expense of our friendship?
pathetic, telling you now that it is situated at stake!!!
i'm not your _ _ _y anymore!!!

but dont make it deter you from helping others.
cuz what goes around turns around, they said its karma...
you get what you earn, you earn what you sacrifice... whether worthy or otherwise its subjective test but dont ignore objective view that a reasonable person might give you!
sad case!

从不值得到

2011-04-23T20:16:00.002+08:00

-不能爱恋只能暗恋历时六年。

意味着从受伤到复原到不敢奢望的转变是那么的傲慢。

这傲慢的过程，是一种享受。

那一点一滴的氛围慢慢的渗入狭窄的空间直到结成蛹方休。

破蛹之时指日可待。

能否蜕变得视天时地利人和。

不远不远。

寂寞的选择

2011-04-17T02:10:00.003+08:00

寂寞的选择，往往是悬在半空中的酒杯；

良久无法停顿由左至右的旋律。

这让人折腾一刻，像是憋着气空间般煎熬；

让人只想奔跑到月球的冲动去。

disastrous, this is not the correct way of thinking..

everything should be in the correct direction rather than having it suspend up in the air...

competence or not its not that trivial anymore, i doest outweighed than other in such a way stretched so far... a confession have to be made...

over and above i really seeing someone, how torture is that....

its not difficult to see someone rather whether the other felt the same is a tedious one...

only god knows what to do... dont hope that i will cross my fingers tonight, but dont make it harsh and fast for me at some sort of degree...

cast a doubt rather than cast a spell

2011-04-08T03:51:00.002+08:00

shit la weih~

i dislike this kind of circumstances...

sigh!!!!

sometime you just have to realized that you are your own savior!

a monk

2011-03-26T10:09:00.002+08:00

there was a monk who was a junior monk back then,

he was asked to build a wall nearby monastery by a senior monk.

day and night he worked hard for the wall in order to ensure the wall is built vertically from the ground.

upon the wall fully built after some days, he realized that one brick was popping out from the wall itself and its terribly an eye sore for him,

he consulted the senior monk as to whether is there a necessity to demolish the wall and built it once again... the senior monk declined..

So, whenever there are visitors came by the monastery, he will purposely avoid from walking pass the wall...

one day, a visitor noted the wall and he told the monk that the wall is beautiful, the monk cant get it and asked the visitor that how come a brick popping out from a wall considered beautiful...

the visitor said albeit a brick popped out but how about the rest of the bricks that constituted the lovely wall?

the monk enlightened and in his sight now, the wall is beautiful and special because of the popped brick.

there are different perspective in everyone of us.. you might get stuck sometime but dont worry because there will be someone enlighten you... and try to think the brighter side , who knows you might have a brand new perspective in viewing the world at large..

you should have realised

2011-03-21T00:16:00.002+08:00

prima facie, i didnt seem mad at all.

BUT, you really technically basically should have realized it without needing me draw the issue affront you.

funny thing was i tried to calm myself that its unworthy to aggrieve for what others have done albeit it did in the first place...

rationality often defeated by emotion, but the truth is these two are always paradoxically...

you bugger moron better be watch out... dont get your life too ease... i'll come after you...

i mean what i said and i say what i meant.... haha...

idiot!

五年

2011-03-10T21:08:00.002+08:00

听说：
“回首五年光阴，依旧在你身旁的朋友才是真正的朋友”，
正确与否五年便知。

还有三年，
朋友我等你！！

真的缅怀校服生活，
光阴真的一去不复返啊；
时间在不知不觉中流逝，
我奢侈地渴望回到过去。
以前不断真诚地渴望-长大，
现在竟不知廉耻地乞求时间静止；
矛盾，哀哉。

我心好烦

2011-02-27T23:31:00.001+08:00

我不知道为何？？
考试越来越靠近了，我不要这样的状态下读书！！
正面能量来来来！
我一定可以！！

its never too hard to say GOODBYE

2011-02-21T01:31:00.003+08:00

tripped in the journey of life... a pause was pressed in a sunny day...
a pause that i can hardly envisage, if i had it wasnt within my imagined picture...
we might wished the pause could come quicker then,
but the truth seems to tell me that not every expectors can have a control over it...
for me its never too hard to say GOODBYE...
world is still spining, clock is still ticking...
just, we are concerning the world in a different space layer... it doesnt seems any different technically...
everythings are arranged but its a question of facts how we are going to encapsulate what we had in framed time scope...
everyone life span are different... long or short have it very owns interpretation...
no need to cast a doubt...
just have faith is more than enough...

情人节geh节啊

2011-02-14T23:30:00.004+08:00

情人节geh节啊，节瓜geh瓜啊。

有一种蝴蝶只生存二十四小时，朝生暮死，只为了寻找另一半。
若我也只有二十四小时，我想我会做更多....

在人多的时候最沉默，笑容也寂寞。
万丈红尘里真不易沉淀。

日有所思

2011-02-10T22:18:00.002+08:00

真的夜有所梦？

在别人梦里出现，
是否表示你在日间想念着某人呢？
耐人寻味啊！

LOL

2011-01-30T21:17:00.002+08:00

i need a real LOL...
a in depth one...
anything that lift up my god damn lips..
i hunger for it...
too much to say, not much to express....
diuZ!!

no option

2011-01-25T20:20:00.004+08:00

confronting with depression currently....
asked myself? is this what i really want? what do i still want?
stepped in this road doesnt provide me a backdoor...
it leave no room to give up... as i walk further, there is only one consequence...
keep walking... there is no other options....
onus behind my back is getting heavy... but i wont give up...
i still remember,
"everybody know~
who we are~
we are st john st john~
we are chong hwa st john~"
seriously, it motivated me a lot...
i'm glad that i am one of the members...

222 in 0413

2011-01-09T04:13:00.002+08:00

insomnia argh

:'(

原来是咀嚼的

2011-01-06T02:09:00.003+08:00

回忆原来是咀嚼用的，
酸甜苦辣往往是往脑袋里揪出回忆慢慢地咀嚼出来。
过去的事情虽然像是一缕烟的飘过，
但在寂静的深夜里往往会不经意的像录影带般播映出来历历在目。
过去的就让它随风飘去，随着季节的变化而更新；
夜来风雨声，花落知多少？
咀嚼原来也有着不同的风味。
就是多了那么一份的感概与满足。
感概的是事情可以做得更好，
满足的是不完美的结局竟然拼出完美的回忆。
人生多瑙河啊！

西元

2011-01-02T20:17:00.002+08:00

西元二零壹零，
犹如夜空里的雷电般快速的闪过了。
这残酷的事实好像我家前的果树，
来不及成熟的果实就被强风给吹谢了，洒落在满地。
得到意想不到的东西，也让失落给占上风来。

西元二零壹壹，
我不期望有着魔术般的结果，
我只期许有着平凡且参杂着快乐的过程。

各位同仁和“仁”，新年快乐！

掏空

2010-12-30T19:54:00.005+08:00

承蒙大家对我的母语水平的正面反应，
小弟又有勇气以母语张贴这篇日志。

迷茫不知不觉，再度侵蚀心灵。
曾几何时，心里的每一块都是饱满的；
即使单身也不感寂寞空虚，寂寞只是偶然的过客。
时过境迁；
寂寞空虚犹如身置在森林被嗜血的蚊子强暴般，
既无助又无可奈何。
曾经两手相牵，落得单手持酒的场景；
让我深思难道这就是今日的形影不离造成日后的杯弓蛇影。
不解，疑惑也。

手机新颖与否已不是重点，
能否在有人拨电给你时响起才是重点。
我的手机已有三个月没加额，你呢？
一天手机没响倒不是新鲜事，讽刺的是电力消耗并不是正规使用而被消耗，
而是躺在桌上慢慢的等待那天的到来。

影子，
被光线毫无分寸地拉长；
犹如将我的寂寞空虚毫无管制地放大再放大。
身在故居却有着身在异乡的孤寂，
难道这就是原地踏步综合症的初步症状？
茫然就是以这样的姿态扩散，一步一步地占据你的心灵，
直到掏空方休。

面子书本

2010-12-29T18:59:00.003+08:00

相信，大家对以上的主题最熟悉不过。
每一次的登入，都会让你焕然一新，锅锅猛料。
你会很惊讶的发现；诶，谁谁谁拍拖、诶，谁谁谁跟谁谁谁去什么地方、
诶谁谁谁最近蜕变了，变得漂亮了。
视乎这媒介已变成大家沟通的平台甚至窥探的窗户。

在同一个出发点大家个别奔向终点，有人前有人后有人原地踏步有人不知所终。
我又处于那一个检查站呢？
然而，突然觉得自己有点原地踏步的感觉。
而且，强烈的很。有点被侵蚀的感觉。

西元二零壹零就快走到尽头。
猛然回首，回顾从前不禁唏嘘起来。
岁月不留人，遗留下的是一叠又一叠的回忆。
无论是让你不堪回首还是让你眉开眼笑的回忆，一切只能往梦里追逐。
追追赶赶一生，能在记忆当中留下影子的又有多少？
（好像有点离题。）

nonetheless

2010-12-20T22:06:00.003+08:00

nevermind
a common word that we used to it...
either hear it or say it, it is the consequence of words escape from the lips so easily...
yet in comfort our mind and soul that its truely NOTHING is harsh..
by saying nevermind
nonetheless contradictory to our inner voice...
but are we threatened to say so?
is there anything that forced us?
are we left with no choice but to treat something like nothing?
it seems to be a maze between your reasoning faculty now...
but what i can really sort of,
whenever someone say nevermind repeatly, obviously its a crucial matter that he/she minds a lot...
its that sounded logic?
up to you...
but i insist... indeed conceivable...

different feeling

2010-12-19T21:50:00.002+08:00

different feeling,
when viewing the same statement appear again after a period of time...
having a different feeling, mostly contributed to the change of perspective...
back then, i asked for reason why to express such a statement...
today, in my position i think its nothing but wait to get the anwser from some other place...
blogspot, perhaps...
weird?
nope... i dont think so... just kinda funny when you thinking it back...
what i can explain, its life...
you can never understand the reason behind it, but only adapt in varies circumstances...
ironic would be a better guise to reason it...
dont you think?

选

2010-12-12T00:56:00.002+08:00

友人问我：“到底我真正喜欢谁？”。

其实，不必烦。
答案早已埋藏在心里，只要退一步就会悟到。

其实，谁也不在他心里。
他，谁也没喜欢上。
只是心里在作祟，仍然徘徊在寂寞边界。

人心真难以捉摸。

一二二，二二一

2010-12-07T18:46:00.002+08:00

一组号码，两部手机，两段缘。

爱与不爱？
已不是一道重要的问题，事因它总让我们无话可说。
分与不分？
已不是难于抉择的困扰，事因它始终把两颗心拉远。

感情，走不进坟墓；
就是如此，没有归属可言。

what a guy/girl wants

2010-12-05T20:11:00.003+08:00

its not rarely to see some notes posted on facebook regarding the title above...
in fact, i'm sicked of it, alot... no offence at all, just i found out those post is rather mumbling indeed....
i dont know what do you guys think about it, its just my own opinion...
but what i really wants is simple, a simplistic of my ideal partner...
i hope she,
doesnt minds to travel around with me even thou i can only let her embrace my waist behind while we riding bike together;
doesnt minds that i cant give her any pricey gifts but a warmth hug for every festival or days that we being together;
doest minds that i cant afford her any high class foods but a plate of hokkien mee at Petaling Street that we share together;
doesnt mind that i dont have a handsome face as Brad Pitt or a perfect six packs as Taylor Lautner has but rather a normal guy like anyone at the streets that will appreciate his loved one as the only one;
doesnt minds that i love her more than anyone else even myself.

i think my ideal partner might doesnt seem as simple as you guys think,
in my context its my perspective...
but i think if the right person in your mind fall within the above ambit,
what are you waiting for? i already stood in front of you... LOL
material just a subject matter, what i addicted most is the object matter...
are you the ONE?

yam cha culture

2010-11-29T20:43:00.002+08:00

living in malaysia doesnt really benefit to a person in various aspects...
especially to your tummy and Cholesterol Index...
why? probably we can blame on the mamak culture as you used to call it as yam cha all the time...
yam cha, often took place anywhere nearby the street...
as long as there are chairs and tables, no proper roof? doesnt matter, sky above us served a function indeed...
yam cha, regardless time... anytime we can also find mamak nearby... most of them open 24/7 a week... i guess they hungered for money so much...
from teh-tarik envolved to something called li-mi-ko-te which are limao-ice, milo-ice/panas, kopi-ice/panas and of course teh-ice/panas/tarik.... notably, you can have them all mixed together... dont doubt, they can fullfill any of your orders as long as you PAY!
yam cha also played an important role in national's economic field...
its a cheap enjoyment that even a primary kid can afford... definitely it does contributed to the economic cycle as we did spend quite a lot.... dont tell me you didnt!!!
yam cha what a leisure and pleased activity...

what i had learnt in those previous days

2010-11-26T00:59:00.004+08:00

i learnt how to breath..
how to breath under the lonely atmosphere when i'm alone...
as a norm, its not a tough task yet it challenged me a lot from being engulfed by the loneliness...
i learnt how to look...
how to look things at diffrent prospective or angle, it because everythings look different if you took another side of it...
i learnt how to feel...
how to feel good or bad in daily life... good or bad in this moement doesnt really matter because today is history tomorrow is future...
i learnt how to learn...
there are actually a lots to learn in life, trying not to confine myself in a situation i comfort with...
without obstacles, there will be no fun.. isnt it?
what a bullshit... which moron really appreciate life in the above case?
You? probably....
but, i myself only have a little demand...
i hope i can smile while i'm sleeping and some sweet dreams during the wee hours in the morning... i wish i can...
at least i have few moments to bring me back to joy that i longed such much...

once in a while

2010-11-19T01:39:00.002+08:00

once in a while,
spend one to two hours for a movie inevitably bring some joyful to our bored life...
undoubtedly that, selection of movie played an important part in order to enjoy to the max...
instead of action or humour movie,
i choose a fairy tales like movie [Enchanted] which i finished 15 min ago...
its been a while that this movie had been striked down, but with the help of PPStv,
i found it accidentally... and for that moment my instinct told me that this is the movie for tonight...of course,
before movie started i need to study for a while to prevent from feeling guitly afterwards...
so, i suffered a bit in study because you cant imagine that kind of feeling when you wanted something so much yet you abstructed with a challenge confronted you... damn itchy...
as a matter of facts, movie does really relieved me from stressful life indeed... believed?
back to the movie;
Enchanted, what a brilliant movie... it trigger off your emotional nerve, take you off high to sky...
its combination story of fairy tales and reality world... the proportion just in right measure...
what a lovely movie...
i'm charged...
a movie a day keep depression and stressful away...
what about you? (at least it served me well, not too long ago.. just now only... =)

time investment

2010-11-17T19:54:00.002+08:00

its a norm when people cant deal well in time management...
perhaps, everytime when we spoke about managment it is kinda tedious for us to manage it...
so, why dont we change a different perspective looking at this issue...
look, it will seem more easier if we look at it as time investment...
the reason i will look at it as investment because i see the value behind the effort that we will put on it...
albeit i kinda sucks in add maths but guys, this is an easy mathematic question...
ok, let me illustrate more... IF, we invest at least 3 hours in a day solely for study, we get at least 30 grams of knowledge and i can guarantee you that the 30 grams of knowledge will turn into more than 30 bucks in return... it is undoubtedly a profit gaining business...
although it sound lame but i believe if you dont put effort while studying now, in future you have to put more than 30 grams of labour effort to gain 30 bucks...
dear fellow, will you allow this consequence happen on you for the rest of your life in regretful and blaming for the past?
put your hand on your chest ask yourself, is this what you want?
make a decision now!

p/s: this post irrevelant with my personal feelings, mainly for practising... it might sound unreasonable thou leave a shit to correct me if there is any grammatical error... tq..

happened and ended

2010-11-14T13:51:00.003+08:00

things started and ended.
flash back few months before, everythings were fine and lovely..
no ones realized that it could happen on a noraml person which you can find anywhere in the street.
truth, it happened..
started
at a sunny day, the weather is so hot but lucikly it was windy as well.
a 550 metres journey from YWCA to Hang Tuah Station made us sweat like hell, a journey that i thought is far whilst actually its so near...
climax
took place at 2 o'clock in the morning, who knows that a bastard would ride a bike early in the morning just to see someone and have a so-called breakfast... it happened and officially trigger off the start from single mode to two players mode... sounded sweet... worth to risk own life for a start...
moderate
pace began to take place after a while yet i still managed the joy shared with the other person... without realising thing started to change slowy slowy... sadness is about to encroach happiness very soon... people used to say its a typical phenomenon that there is always peacful before storm... undoubtdely it is.
fin
two persons thought that problems can be rectify as long as we work it out together... but the truth is, the problems getting harder whilst one of them already thinking to end it rather than dragging it all the way long... yes, you ended your part of sadness by transferred to another person impliedly...
what to do, the circumstance obviously indicated the suffered one to put an end to the journey... albeit how unwillingness the person is, he had no choice yet to agreed...
ended
in a very undecent manner, but there is no regret...
used to travel 14.7 km route from jinjang to jalan hang jebat, a 15 min journey left a memory weighed more than 15kg in my mind...
appreciated...

can anyone tell me what season now?

2010-11-13T23:40:00.002+08:00

ppl around me are getting into relationship recently, congratz for those who managed to find the ONE!
life mode changed back to single mode, yet messy than before...
trying to adapt the old mode of lifestyle, actually trying so hard... suffered...
tried all kind of methods but nth changed... sigh...
i dont want to fail my exam~ argh!

its the time to come back!!!

2010-08-15T13:13:00.002+08:00

albeit the previous situation not so good... but i'm here put on my armor to fight again...
lsat night was fun, food was nice(i dont really tasted all the food, the most i ate was hotdog... lol..
its been a long long time 6aren didnt meet up, such a good gathering... i like it...
cameron trip?? hrm... i'm still wondering... lets see...
its time go back to reality.... study, work and study....
feel like to blog more... but dont really have the mood to blog... lol...
listened an old song currently... not bad... recommend to you guys... [first of may]
this post sucks...
i dont like it but... i'm determine to blog it...
dont stop in the middle... once you started, draw the fullstop yourself... dont leave to others...
cheer... this year will be another good year...
and its going CNY soon... lets go to 契妈 house for gathering... lol...

原来，痛的还是自己。

2010-08-07T16:56:00.002+08:00

痛，
只有自己知道。
没人能了解，也没人能分担。
痛，
始终还是得靠自己走过。
痛，
在心，身，智，魂。
痛，
原来可以呈现得那么悦耳；
但一点都不动听。
痛，
有谁能奏此曲；
自己，无他。

the 200th

2010-07-26T21:12:00.003+08:00

its not that easy to reach this number in a blog...
it may seems easy to others but not me...
as i dont blog much and express much in blog make me harder to achieve this number...
current life is not that smooth... but somehow i felt glad...
i hope that everything will be fine as i wished...
i started to afraid of my degree programme... my result is purely based on my actual exam days...
good or bad in based on my performance that particular day...
just one shot off... its the paradox of having external programme....
so, there are nothing much to envy... right???
degree programme is not that easy to counter...
for all the fellows and friends out there whomsoever a degree student all the best for you all...
=)

desperado?

2010-07-20T00:24:00.002+08:00

just ignore the title, as i simply put it only...
it is irrelavant of what i'm going to discuss down there...
life isnt that smooth lately... wanted so much to study but then there is something pulling back me... dont be afraid, this circumstance isnt any kind of horror movie... chill ya...
its like, i'm getting lazy and lazier(?) after my two weeks breaks previously... damn headache about it... time is getting lesser, apart from my exam only 7 months remain... really dont know how to write "death"LOL...
manglish, really a troublesome disease... why would i called it as a disease?
because, i need to cure it up... i dont want to remain at the kindergarden standard english level...
not so say i need to become a pro in this language, at least a satisfied college/uni student level... correct or not? sigh...
looks like i'm gonna miss my bed again....
i have no choice but to abandon you, my dear bed...
last but not least,
happy birthday to my dear friend, VALERIE...

craving for

2010-07-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

recently, ppl around me craving for a female singer called OLIVIA ONG..
so, on behalf my curiousity i went to check on it...
olivia, honestly this name did gave me some room of imagination...
apparently, this singer have a decent look, which i would like to comment...
the core part isnt the appearance fact, its her voice...
oh, gosh~~ i like a song from her called [YOU AND ME] if not mistaken, it obviously voiced out me feeling... isnt that great sometime you found some songs' lyric that reflecting your situation or what's going on recently?? i think its not a bad thing...
craving/ addiction??
today, i was told to being playful btw these two words...
funny shit right?? i think that as well...
hrm... i'm wondering now, whether am i addicted or obsessed...
its kinda hard to determine a demarcation btw these words, correct or not??
regarding studies, i really nearly almost surrender....
its not about the level of the subjects hard or easy, just i'm being a lazy human being lately...
i tell you what; these days, even i sitting on my chair with all the study materials on the desk i still dont have any mood or willingness to read at all.. what a shame on me.. god...
so guys, is that a bad thing or a good thing?
somemore, my thinking hasnt develop yet... somethings like my thinking stultify at seconday school level... who can help me??? i bet no ones right?? lol....
somemore, its very important to deliver a msg to CHONG HWA...
[OUR ENGLISH IS SUCK!!!!!!!] seriously, i don't fool around with this issue....
CH, you need to improve your English syllabus... if not, for those juniors who will attend college or uni on future 100% suffer...
see how first~ see, this is what i talking about.... translate directly... damn xia shui la....
and one more thing,
DONT LET EVER EVER LET STUDENT COPY ESSAY!! ITS 101% HARMFUL!!!!!
i heard a bad news and a good news today...
good news is, our country petrol company a.k.a PETRONAS will get a higher profit next day onwards...
bad news is, our petrol price arise tomorrow onwards...
this circumstance shown us a different point of views in a same matter...
so, be wise and choose a easy one... haha...
ciao, ppl.... fetch me next time, i don't feel like driving d... =P

being slapped

2010-07-12T23:42:00.003+08:00

i was slapped in my lecture class today...
not just one side, both side... i still feel the heat on my face...
i knew that maybe i'm not the subject that you said...
but when it arrived my ears, i felt so mean on that particular moment...
thats all happened on today.... bye ppl~
heading to do my assignment noW!
tq for you all attention on this meaningless post~

random post

2010-07-11T02:39:00.005+08:00

good to see you all early in the morning...
let me start with a polite greeting first...
GOOD MORNING PPL~
doubtless that its actually a bit late for my sleeping time....
its important to emphasize "a bit"... why?? be patiently, let me explain it to you.
ok, its well know that as a degree level student we have to go through a busy three years life(minimum three years)
as busy in what terms? assignment time... dont you guys agree with me? haha..
its true that whilst doing the assignment, reluctantly we have to burn the oil lamp til the next morning... most of it because we accumulate the work until last few minutes... right?
you can object me if you are not one of us... haha... thats why i said mostly...
so, although its going to 0300 i still claim that its early...
i experienced few times that i went to class soon after i finished my assignment in the morning...
be frankly, the feeling not bad.... it will boost up your semangat for a period of times...
but later on, you have to count on RED BULL... haha...

E years, how to go through with a appropriate lifestyle...
after LearN you have to EarN...
well, its time for me proceed to sleep... haha..
good night ppl, ops...

a moody day

2010-07-06T08:29:00.002+08:00

how to start with this post tittle?
yup, i'm extremly moody currently, trying so hard to study but ended with a sleep in bed last night. kinda surprise that i can sleep that long, am i evolved? haha.. maybe.
finally back to college, its not as excited as i expected indeed kinda disappointed.
i dont what the heck happen to me, just felt that.
its getting vague whether is it my problem or our problem, i dont see any virtually certainty between this thing. my sight is getting blur and blur....
its supposed to be a happy day but it seems unlikely, it urged my to doubt myself "hey!! any problem with you?"
whatever~ life like this, dont you guys agree with me?
i dont like whenever ppl giving excuses that this is the faith because before the moment you dead its still not faith, correct?
beyond the LIMIT! (nice new phrase rite? i like it)
have a great day ppl~

i got time

2010-07-03T23:40:00.002+08:00

finally i got time to blog a bit.
phew, two weeks of break coming to the end at last.
well, the original plan didnt worked out, run out of track is all i can said.
nevertheless, i did gain somethings. althought its not really that much, yet there are somethings.
went to the class gathering just now. dont feel like gathering as the FIFA is broacasting now, hate this circumstance. not a single chance to crap, wasted... next time? cant guarantee~
oh, almost forgot... i went back to chong hwa sport day as well...
i think this year is better than the previous that v had on 2007, maybe i was young on that time? haha... perhaps...
nth changed, especially the long skirt's LENG LUI~ haha... you guys know who am i talking bout rite? haha... IF, you DONT KNOW, you are exactly not a chong hwa-ian~ haha..

life is hard, even a three years old kid know about it.
but how to get easy within hard life, even a sixty years old man may not know it.
think positive will lead to a positive consequence, this is what the "SECRET" told us.
whether working or not, its up to you and me.
no doubt, the daily life routine is almost the same; but if you want to, you can do a lil change on it to make it a bit different. the result might cheer you up, who knows? haha..
anyways, have a great day ppl~

Curb the GREY!

2010-06-22T21:35:00.002+08:00

currently, my PRIOR mission is to Curb the GREY!!!!!!!!
i dont want to be pessimist from tmr onwards.
i have to conquer my seven days work.
i always wanted to share a bulk of things through my blog,
consequently i felt it hard to start with the FIRST WORD.
so, its right to say that the hardest words in the world is the First worD.
pressure, from different aspect crashed on me the previous couple of days.
i agreed that PRESsURE really make us move forward, despite the negative part it do help.
but pressure have to be handle regularly in order for a balance lifestyle.
apparently, i cant really cope the pressure well the previous days.
sometime, i even doubt myself why i was gave birth in this particular circumstance.
i dont mean my family contributed to my pressure,
but as the only son of my family's old folks(my parent) i really feel the burden, although i have an elder sister.
my study, my financial, my relationship and my family subsequently contributed my increasing pressure.
i aint a superMAN nor SPIderMan. I dont have any super powers...
i did thought of detain myself from getting contact with outer world....
GOD SAKE!
bless afengz to get through 7 days.

i trapped once again

2010-06-21T22:42:00.002+08:00

subsequently i was trapped once again.
i was in between all the things that i want to commit with.
feeling so damn lost now.
feel like suffering the hysterical now...
i want to scream out loudly...
GOD, i beg you~ please send someone down and bring me along.
i'm totally in a grey mood now...
helpless at all~
=(

its raining

2010-06-21T14:17:00.001+08:00

its raining over here.
with some thunders as well.
i think Zeus is playing with his lightning bolt perhaps~

i feel grey right now!

2010-06-17T19:29:00.002+08:00

a tiring test week gone,
but i dont feel happy at all.
i feel so grey right now. =(
i dont know what had happen to me, i doubt myself.
dull atmosphere surround my terrain.
i'm not so happy at all in this particular moment.
i took a nap in the afternoon, having a thought that can cure me up.
consequently, it doesnt help at all.
physically normal just my soul run out of norm track.
why the heck happen to me?
the sky look grey today just to reflect my mood?
i have no ideas.... =(
i dont feel comfort as well...
god sake~
i miss the warmth~

t'm back PEOPLE!!!

2010-06-07T20:48:00.002+08:00

apart from my previous, gam gam one month already.
all dudes out there, sorry ya~
life being so busy lately...
but if you want to have a yamcha session with me, NO PROBLEM~
just gimme a call i will turn up.
(ps: contact me half day before ya. dont last minute,late invitation will not entertained... lol...;p)
my mock exam will start next week, so i maybe disappear again~ kekex...
one thing to clarify here, I'M SINGLE!!! haha..
so, if got any sui sui e girls can introduce to me, sharing is caring what. =)
had a camp previous weekend, quite tiring...
stick with kids inside the camp, damn teruk them... call me UNCLE... WTF....
when come to feeding time then change to call me Gor Gor.... damn realistic la...
kids nowadays make me scare~\
but i still like babies...i want babies~~
found that hard to speak lately... everytime speaking in whatever language also "kek" there...
seems like 语言障碍... is it a common thing when dominant language changed from a previous familiar environment, a crash occur? sad case la...
so how?
anyway, i'm optimistic, chill my frenz... haha...
looking forward to see you guys..
ciao~

远在天边，近在眼前; 但是，却没有发生过。

2010-05-07T11:08:00.001+08:00

thx you guys for the support,
for more info pls click into

GOTCHA

thanks for the cooperation..

haha...

ps: dont scold me...

一个粗男人的温柔

2010-05-02T20:41:00.002+08:00

一个粗男人，哪有温柔可言？
但，
我却发现了。
他，
为了把小猫移到没下雨的地方；
尽然宁愿让雨水不停的打在他身上也不愿让小猫淋到雨。
并且，还为小猫用布抹干它们的身体。
爸，
我尽然不懂你有如此温柔的一面。
我向你看齐。

远在天边，近在眼前

2010-04-30T20:08:00.006+08:00

somehow, its true..
never doubt of ancient Chinese Intelligence.
i appreciate...

is it released or relieved?

2010-04-28T19:11:00.002+08:00

is coming to an end point.
i dont seek for a truth,
i seek for a resolution.
as far as i concern,
its seems going to a doesnt matter stage,
because someone gotta go.
skeptical does not exist in this matter.
everyone deserve a fair trial, even a gay can.
nvm, i sentencing myself.
i think i can cope with it.
isnt that awful actually, its better than hiding under the nutshell...
move on?
released ?
or
relieved ?
haha.
i laugh?

2010-04-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉檬撬械囊磺性缇鸵呀崾?br>不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

最近-张然聍

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁

你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路

爱我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

considered as old songs since ppl rarely listen to it now...
randomly listened from radio..
i like the voice.. so deep till cant touch the bottom...
it just nice to listen to old songs sometime, somehow...
unbeatable....

run out

2010-04-04T18:04:00.002+08:00

run out of what to blog lately.
my life turning to another phrase.
college life isn't so fun actually, lecturers teaching like rushing to hell in class.
met with some dudes in class, kinda fresh knowing different people.
law doesn't seems the LAW i knew when i was a child. just head on...
watched New Moon just now. Jacob was cool with his extraordinary body shape, which make Edward sucks.
only remember the last scene.
Edward: Only under one condition, Marry Me.
it end with a ?
i like the ending, spaces for us to imagine.
imagine.

story

2010-02-21T18:29:00.002+08:00

everyone were telling theirs' story last night,
each of the story have its own listener.
obviously, i'm not the so in that part,
i was not so intend to listen.
my story,
just like that, is the only answer i can gave.
no details because my story really just like that,
nothing much nothing less, just like that.
i would like to share but i really have nothing to share.
perhaps, sweet escape is the thing i need to launch right now.
i took, i bear, when will i lift down?
what can i obtain in the end or deserved a starting?
my story, deserve a chance to reveal?
just like that.
thats simple...

looks like

2010-02-19T03:13:00.001+08:00

looks like,
my responsible ady landed on my shoulder...

this F_ _ king CNY pushed me to the adulthood...
i dont give a damn yet accepting the truth...

CNY, you dont look so nice in a while...

听说

2010-02-11T19:58:00.002+08:00

听说

我没爱上等待，
只是在喜欢上你的时候，
等待静悄悄地徘徊在我身边。

我没爱上寂寞，
只是在爱上你的时候，
寂寞像千层糕一层层地叠上。

听说真的只是听说？？
智者独醒。

其实是事实。

its the morning

2010-01-27T00:43:00.003+08:00

GOOD MORNING...

and once again in this early morning...
ALL THE BEST in coming every single second and minutes....
u know? i just miss you terribly... =)

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!!!!

PS: when the bird started singing i started to......

kiddie 小孩子

2010-01-25T13:40:00.002+08:00

小孩子，
就是那么的简单。
我现在是一家补习中心的老师，除了教补习外还要兼顾小学的功课班。
小学生，心很单纯。
只要他们做好功课，他们就会获得星星。
星星，是他们快乐的泉源。
一粒，两粒，三粒。

原来，小孩子也会谈恋爱。
纯净的喜欢。
当喜欢的人在附近的时候，写功课显得特别勤劳，出错的机会也大大的减少；嘴角不停地露出微笑，就只因为看到您。
喜怒哀乐，终不会藏在看不见的地方。
好纯净。好纯洁。
喜欢的一颗心。

GIVE UP

2010-01-15T22:16:00.004+08:00

someone asked me
"you still haven give up?"
i said
"yes, why you asked so?"
someone asked
"erm..."
"because its been long time you two din see each other."
i said
"yea, long time din see..."
someone nodded(maybe, because we using msn)
=silent=

give up.
i didn't bowed to you,
and i will never-ever bow to you on future.
what i would like to say,
i really fall for you...
truly and deeply...
kinda wonder how do you do lately....
eat well ? sleep well ? etc....
i curious....
i didn't give up on you, swear...
you can see my heart, beating.... just like not belong to me...
its belong to you...
you own it...
thanks....
its been the second month... you still remember?

Loser??

2010-01-12T02:18:00.003+08:00

am i a LOSER??
if you think that, you are totally wrong.
a LOSER wont work hard for money,
a LOSER wont play hard for life,
a LOSER wont think for future,
a LOSER wont have friends,
a LOSER wont have soul mate,
a LOSER wont plan.
a LOSER wont 吹水.
so, do you still think that i am a LOSER ??
(maybe you guys really think that.. hahaXD)
but, there is a thing that i admit,
i dont have girlfriend.
but is that counted on a LOSER specification/characteristic??
erm... from my point of view, i think its not counted on LOSER but a LEARNER.
because love is not gained without hardworking, but lots of effort on it.
ppl surround me all of sudden turned back to my team (single),
is that a good sign??
apparently NO (for those who get dumped)
apparently YES (for those who dumped ppl)
life like this, two different side for either tiny nor major things.
what can you do?? being a learner, try to learn on the passed, as your backup for your future battle.
just, lost do not equal to lose but its the start of victory.
experience do make a person more mature, but was i granted that chance??
who know? (i think GOD also dont have any clue on it. ><)
that all for the nagging section...
haha. silly me~
if u read that above, you are silly as me...
haha~ sot nia....

everyone start theirs uni college life,
all the best for you all, especially for those at HELP because u guys did a brilliant job.
u know what??
gathered up the CHONG HWAZZZ... great job... envy~
back to me,
i ended up a job and going to start on a new job soon.
thx all the superiors and also my passed working colleague,
thx for all the teach and support. except that RAVIN (a bloody hell MANAGER)
thx you all.
my new colleague, cant wait to co-operate with you all, looking forward thou.
my life,
[work, eat, yamcha and sleep]
the formula just keep on repeating again and again.
its been long time i didnt stay awake for this early morning.
i recall that morning that received your message,
warm full-filled that moment atmosphere.
however,
i am still the afengz, i still miss you.
but added with one element, i love you.
thats the interest part of fall for you.
you make me move. i lost my heart, you know why??
because its located inside you. ><
Good Morning to YOU.

凑热闹！！

2010-01-06T20:18:00.002+08:00

雾里看花，花终隐。
仰首看云，云终飘。
手中枫琴，指尖溜。
檐梁木铃，空中摆。

还可以吧？？

时间真的令我畏惧。
畏惧得令人发指。
就这样，就迈入最后的倒数。
剩下四天，我就是自由人。
自由的定义就这般简单，无拘无束，不受别人控制。
我走向自由，但偏偏向往着另外一种束搏的关系。
但，孤掌难鸣，一只手是拍不死蚊子的，对不对？
我，没改变我的立场。
只是，更坚定我的立场。
最长的时间，果然是“一日”。
毕。

今日金曲：镇守爱情，动力火车。

2010

2010-01-03T20:33:00.012+08:00

GOOD BYE 2009
HI 2010.

its the best to describe what its going on lately.
everyone have theirs own single pathway to continue,
some went to college, some went to uni some work, and some like me, just blur there.
Looking forward to see each other, hope it don't sound greedy cause its easy what.
just ring me up, i'm available as u call.
thought is not as same as reality.
people used to say that song can represent someone feel,
currently i cant find any to represent my status now.
maybe some pic will do

thats all.
looking forward to meet you all.
2009 cant be better without you all. especially you.
2010 will be a [?].

只想和你在一起

2009-12-25T18:16:00.003+08:00

【人生苦短，能在一起就好好珍惜。】
【爱你的原因，就是爱你。】
【在一起的动机，只是想跟你在一起】

摘自星洲日报2009年12月23日，副刊第十页。

我喜欢这篇文章。
人其实就应该如 alvin 说的“人”字，一撇一捺地简单。
喜欢就喜欢你。别无原因。
爱你就是爱你。别无原因。
至于在一起，除了想与行动之外还要天时地利人和。
这方面比较困难，因为并不是你能控制的。
时间过的好快　
想念却不曾更改。
毕。

i miss you so much...
are you???

the moment

2009-12-16T00:27:00.002+08:00

the moment

the moment that linked us
the moment together we stepped into a dark place
the moment we walk side by side
the moment i grabbed u tight in my palm
the moment we unwilling to loosen our hand
the moment that the moonlight and stars glinted above our head
the moment i made a cup of mee for you
the moment i peeped on your sleeping face
the moment that i cant ever forget in my life
the moment that i dropped in a deep well
the moment that drag myself towards the feeling
the moment i received your sms
the moment i reply u one by one with a popping heart and shaking hand
the moment i miss you so much in that mid night
the moment

lots of moments accomplished memories
moments cant recreate due to your demands because once its recreate, its not memories
memories can only accumulated in every single right moment
memories only bear in one's mind and heart
unbelievable that its just one month apart from now,
and its such a great and abysmal impact to me
now i realized that you occupy lots of space in my heart's pie
its my pleasure to have you in my memories.

Regards,
afengz

ps: actually planned to type in Chinese but found it become a hard language for me now, its because the english speaking environment that i work with currently. i miss my mother language so much. 【风徐徐吹蚀陈年柳木，令人唏嘘为何不为金。】

肩膀

2009-12-11T20:54:00.003+08:00

今天放工搭巴士回家，不知不觉堕入昏睡状态。
旁边坐着一位看似年老的印裔老公公。
不知不觉中，我呈现着钓鱼的状态。
钓下钓下，我差点把头躺在老公公的肩膀上。
刹时，把头摆直，连声道歉。
让我惊讶的是，他竟然把他的肩膀借出，叫我安心地睡。
我当然拒绝他的好意，因为毕竟他是老人家，加上我又不认识他。
我的脑袋顿时陷入不解的状态，这世界竟然还有这种人！！
这究竟是什么？？我不解。

无论，
什么时候，
什么事情；
什么地点，
什么天气。
只要你说，
我无论在，
什么时候；
什么事情，
什么地点，
什么天气下。
都会把我的肩旁留给你，
都会把我的胸膛留给你。

只要你说。我等你。
烽。

i miss you ich vermisse dich я по тебе скучаю aku rindu kamu

2009-12-07T21:42:00.005+08:00

dear lingz,
forgive me to release my feeling in this post.
apparently, i cant tahan the miss feeling towards you.
its been six days... six days...
for the last six days, i went it through fine; but there were some faults being made...
and two car accidents nearly occurred. i was freaking shocked that moment...
but for god sake, i'm here sitting infront of my pc to write this blog post... GOD BLESS US!!!
i like the way you are. i miss that morning 0337, yea, i admit that i'm so so sensitive of your sms.
yea, u ain't just summer to me but autumn too. u aren't sun or moonlight to me because they seems far from me; but, season that always around me.
last but not least, i miss you deadly~
haha... yea~ i admit~ you are the one...
i'm kinda sotong(singlish) and kayu(singlish) person lately, maybe too much computer thingy...
and one more, Good Night and sleep tight~
tmr will be a good day and of cause a better day...
can't wait for tmr~

grabbed from janice blog

best to describe my feelings?? haha... yea~

two is better than one

2009-12-03T20:39:00.001+08:00

Two Is Better Than One Lyrics

[ft. Taylor Swift]
I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought, "Hey,"

Maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking
I can't live without you
'Cause, baby, two is better than one
There's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
But I'll figure it out
When all is said and done
Two is better than one
Two is better than one

the last day of NOVEMBER and the start of steping into ADULT WORLD

2009-11-30T20:16:00.003+08:00

today is the 30th of November, also a last day for this month...
thinking back this month..
many things had happened, most of it are good things and memorable things...
lots of things went through this month.
i wont forget in my lifetime...
in the other hand, i stepped into the ADULT WORLD today...
a day work really suffer and tiring but i have my very own motivation to keep me pushing on...
kinda boring working day actually, but i managed to find some fun inside...
salary not bad, benefits good indeed, as a result satisfy.
get to know some interesting working colleague, not bad...
i will WORKHARD N PLAYHARD for sure...
REDANG, I CANT WAIT THE ARRIVAL OF YOU...

i'm glad that treasured you in my life,
u make me move, u make me climb.
miss u so much, wonder that will you have you lunch n etc.
a song "morning" is the voice towards u.

2012

2009-11-24T18:40:00.002+08:00

its a blockbuster movie for the end of this year...
staring by XXXs and directed by XXX(its not the main point, kay??)...
i dont actually shown any interest on this movie, but i went for it...
i just want to know what kind of awful feelings will be when watching this movie...
so, i decided drove myself(caution:1 person only) to jusco TGV cinema...
a lil stupid me, i didnt went to the near cinema which just across couple of roads from my house... instead of kepong TGV...
i choose a sit which can lead against the wall... at least not so lonely...
film started with a bunch of china guys... what shocking me was they were promoting china... weird huh?! Hollywood's movie seldom did this...
movie just kept on screening and screening... there come the touching part, where a father talking to his son through the phone; you can see through theirs eyes...
nothing but reluctant... and a divorced father show his responsibility towards his beloved family yet his ex-wife...
the super filming technic of Hollywood's film are unbeatable but this time, its not about how fierce of the land crack and tsunami attacking the world...
its bout how humanity revealed against the chaos... an naif thinking of an normal writer dreams come true...
civilization is built on the proud of humanism...
no doubt, it bring a lil bit awful feelings to me, touching actually...
i think alot inside the cinema... your face just keep popping out in my mind...
its make me more treasure things beside me on future...
i dont want to miss any chances...
just wanna say,i miss you and i love you.
=END=

regards,
afengz...

2009-11-22T01:51:00.001+08:00

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毕旅之邦咯岛

2009-11-17T15:58:00.013+08:00

2009年11月13日～16日的四天三夜毕旅就酱结束了。
回到来，心里不禁五味掺杂。
不知道下一次见面会在几时？？

FIRST DAY
才到达旅店就下水玩水球，感觉真爽！！然后就晚餐，食物真的不错不错下。
晚上，自由活动。不懂哪来的兴致去租借脚车去环岛，不过太多车了，很危险。当然，少不了扑克牌和MAFIA。无所事事的一群人就到房间去聊天，天啊，竟然可聊通宵到凌晨四点钟。原来很多时候大家都有一样的看法。只是，没说出口。

SECOND DAY
一大清早就要爬起床进行既刺激又有挑战的体能活动。 Flying Fox, 走绳索和 JUNGLE TREKKING。令到我们满头大汗，我则汗流如水。还有最精彩的木筏划船，让我们见识到什么是人在大自然中的渺小。过后便有寻找LALA大行动，虽然踩在脚底的烂泥感觉很恶心但是在烂泥里你会发现一颗又一颗的肥美LALA。晚餐的烧烤有我们的LALA，蛮不错的。今晚因下大雨，所以本来的night jungle walk取消了。换来的是自由活动。开了两支红酒，幸好喝不多才那么一杯。是一个好睡的夜晚。

THIRD DAY
一大早就下游泳池游泳，除了爽还有冷。然后午餐解决后便乘船出海环岛，看到各式各样的岛石，世界真无奇不有。还有浮浅。樟，因为海浪太大了，堆城堡的计划将在明年的redang。夜晚的森林探险真的是一级棒。想着想着明天就要离开，很舍不得。恨不得,这一晚可以一直停留。

LAST DAY
午餐前，大家到市街去逛逛。开心因为你喜欢那手链。
我不舍的离开。

给你的。buffday??
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大家都不舍得

2009-11-10T12:38:00.003+08:00

隆中华独中第四十八届毕业典礼已于2009年11月7日圆满结束。
离开毕业典礼已有三天了，大家都没有更新部落格。
很多人多停留在以前的post，是下不了手？？
虽然在典礼上看着毕业短片的感触不大，毕竟已经看到要吐了。
但是，泪水已装满眼眶。感性？？

高三文仁，待了九个月的班级。
还记得我们的 hmm ha hmm ha hmm ha ha 合唱曲。
每逢星期六第二下课的食堂日。
合唱比赛，初赛，决赛。
足球班级赛勇夺冠军。
电脑节打机。
班会上的小争执。
一起打排球。
一起Aruba。
还有很多很多的一起。
【不舍】两个字塞满我的脑袋，虽然说地球是圆的，结束相当于开始。
但又有谁能担保下一次见面时能认出对方呢？？不胜唏嘘！！
各位，祝你们身体健康，前途无量，再会！！

圣约翰救伤队，待了五年的学会。
开心，因为我见证你们的成长。
也是磨练我的地方，成熟是我得到的所获。
这也是孕育友情的地方。
加油！！our st john our home。

老师，您您您。
谢谢你们的教导。
特别是原敏仪，我的毕业班导。
谢谢你，我会永远记得你的。
你的笑容我永远记得，您是最美的！！！
朋友，想不到就酱毕业了。
真的不舍得你们，讲真的；我现在好想上课，好想一起迟到去吃肉骨茶。
怀念不禁。
我想念你们。

2 hours

2009-11-03T22:55:00.002+08:00

its have been 2 hours i staring at my blogspot new post screen....
din event thought i can stared at the monitor for 2 hours...
eyes pain~
fade in and fade out...
flash in and flash out...
sneak in and sneak out...
up and down... your pretty face...
i'm poisoned... totally...
jeez!! who will know???
just a step forward n i'm graduated...
should i happy or wat??
u decide~

finished

2009-11-01T21:14:00.005+08:00

Report:
1. UEC done.
2. BFA(Basic First Aid) done.
3. Convocation coming soon on this saturday.
4. Graduate Trip to P.Pangkor.
5. Saving Cost.
6. Prom Night.
7. Looking for a job.
8. Treasure the rest time with my buddy.

Report completed.
not much feelings... yet, hard to describe.
full of mess, really...
complicated feeling actually... stand btw adolescent and teenage scale...
less than a week, going to jump out of the school...
nth but lots of memories...

a good song for you all

2009-10-18T20:32:00.000+08:00

MORNING

Janice- Morning

When I hear the birds start singing
I wanna see you
Hoo, hoo, do do do do do...
When I see the leaves start fallin
I wanna see you
The only thing I'll do
Don't you know
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start ticking
I start to miss you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is gonna dream of you

Wanna stay by by by your side
You are my everything
You are my only link
To the angel's wings
Talk about love love and
I can't stop thinking of you
Such a crazy thing
Like snow fallin' in spring

(You know every morning)
When I hear the birds start singing
I wanna see you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is to rush and run to you

When I hear the clock start ticking
I start to miss you
Ooh.. The only thing I'll do
Is gonna dream of you

I found my angel in my life
I cannot see why
I cannot see why
We can't be in love till we die

Wanna stay by by by your side
You are my everything
You are my only link
To the angel's wings
Talk about love love and
I can't stop thinking of you
Such a crazy thing
Like snow fallin' in spring

One day we'll spread our wings
You and me da, you and me da...
Spread our wings do..do...do....
Wannabe wannabe wanna
I wanna be,be your lover
I'll run to you...ooh...

7 DL

2009-10-13T19:54:00.001+08:00

i'm super-duper dulan now
damn shit~
fxxk u wacko~
shit you~
piss on you~

phew~ pls forgive my rudeness~

deleted

2009-10-06T20:55:00.002+08:00

i just deleted my inbox~
i wanted to do this since decades ago ~
yet, my finger just cant pressed the delete keypad...
my current feeling is [cheh, rupa-rupanya tak ada apa-apa pun]
really BLY...
think of what 郑秀春老师 this morning said; [你的就是你的，不是你的怎样都得不到].
its sound like a philosophy thingy, but its just a simple principle.
what human being used to; the simple principle , the harder to understand...
a simple things can simply simply turn someone into a simpleton... =]
agree?? hahahax...
i get the meaning but do u???
as a matter of fact, had u prepared for the uec or any exam???
dont let it be a mortifying defeat to u but conquer it...
u should have a look of steely determination in this moment jor...
YES... gambateh and all the luck to all the ppl surround me...
Gambateh~

tagged by wan chern

2009-09-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

♥ 被點到必填，不填代表你不尊重傳給你的人和問卷。
♥ 請老實的回答每一個問題。
♥ 不行擅自塗改題目。
♥ 寫完請點8位小朋友，不可不點。
♥ 點完後請通知那8位小朋友他被點到了。
♥ 那8位小朋友填完問卷，必須把問卷寄回——給你填問卷的人。加油咯！

--------------[ 壹 ] . 個人題 - １０題 --------------

[ 01 ] 你叫什么: afengz
[ 02 ] 你的綽號: 如上
[ 03 ] 你的血型: 不知道
[ 04 ] 你的星座: 魔羯座
[ 05 ] 你是男還是女: 男
[ 06 ] 你幾歲:17 9/12
[ 07 ] 你住哪里: jinjang selatan, Kepong
[ 08 ] 你現在的學校: Chong Hwa Independent High School
[ 09 ] 你有沒有手機: 有
[ 10 ] 承上，那是多少: １个

--------------[ 貳 ] . 朋友題 - １０題 --------------

[ 11 ] 你最要好的朋友(限１個): 不懂
[ 12 ] 你最討厭的人(限１個): 没吧
[ 13 ] 你最正的女性朋友(限１個): 没有过
[ 14 ] 你最帥的男性朋友(限１個): 各有各好
[ 15 ] 什麼樣的女生你最討厭: 做作、表里不一、装可爱
[ 16 ] 什麼樣的男生你最討厭: 不负责任
[ 17 ] 你的好朋友有誰(不限): 很多～
[ 18 ] 你經常和哪位朋友出去: MLB
[ 19 ] 你身邊最憨的朋友(限１個，不能自己): 看着的你？？
[ 20 ] 你身邊最可愛的朋友(限１個): lolx

--------------[ 參 ] . 感情題 - １５題 --------------

[ 21 ] 你有沒有喜歡的人: 没有吧
[ 22 ] 如果有，那他/她叫什麼名: -
[ 23 ] 如果沒有，那你希望什麼時候有另一半: 任何时候都可以
[ 24 ] 到目前為止，你跟多少人告白過: 2
[ 25 ] 到目前為止，你被多少人告白過: 0
[ 26 ] 到目前為止，你交過多少個男友: 0
[ 27 ] 你現在有另一半嗎: 没有
[ 28 ] 你最好的同性朋友跟你告白你會怎樣: 死开啦
[ 29 ] 你初戀情人突然跟你告白你會接受嗎: 会考虑
[ 30 ] 你為什麼會喜歡你現在喜歡的人:=】

[ 31 ] 你跟你的另一半牽手過嗎: -

[ 32 ] 你跟你的另一半抱或親過嗎: -
[ 33 ] 你跟異性牽手過嗎: 有
[ 34 ] 是誰，你們什麼關係: 朋友
[ 35 ] 現在有人在追你嗎: 没有吧..

-------------[ 四] . 學校題 - １１題 --------------

[ 36 ] 你的班導是誰：原敏仪老师
[ 37 ] 你的座位是第幾排第幾个：靠门第一排右边第四个
[ 38 ] 你最喜歡的老師是誰：都好
[ 39 ] 你英语好吗：还好
[ 40 ] 你的數學好嗎: 不好
[ 41 ] 你喜不喜歡你的校長：没接触
[ 42 ] 你的學校好看嗎: 可以更好看
[ 43 ] 你的班級是：6a仁

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tagged by hao yao

2009-09-28T20:02:00.002+08:00

点名规则:
A. 被点到名字的要在自己的博客里写下自己的答案，然后去掉一个你最不喜欢的问题再加上一个你的问题，仍然组成20个问题，传给其他8个人，列出其他8个需要回答问题的人的名字，还要到这8个人的部落格裡留言通知对方——你被点名了，被点名者不得拒绝回答问题，完成游戏的人将会永远得到大家的祝福。
B. 这８个人要在自己的部落格裡註明是从哪裡接到的，并且再传给其他8个人，让游戏继续下去，不得回传。被点到名字的人将会得到大家的祝福，并且所有美好的愿望都会在不久的将来实现。
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1.你最希望从朋友(不包括爱人)那里得到的是什麼?
~没有

2.最近最鬱闷的事?
~没有

3.最受不了自己的哪个缺点?
~自卑，小气？？

4.遇到喜欢的人，你是勇敢表白还是默默关注?
~看看进展到如何

5.说出点你名的人3个优点(不可删除题)
~一个好人

6.以一个形容词形容点名的人的外表
~比我好看很多

7.你现在最想拥有的是什麼?
~健康

8.你的梦想是什麼？
~让爸妈快乐的升华

9.恋人／老公／老婆让你最欣赏的优点是什麼？
~没恋人／老公／老婆

10.这辈子做过最疯狂的事情是什麼?如果没有，最想从事的疯狂行为是什麼?
~还没有。

11.十年以后，你想过什麼样的生活?你打算如何实现呢?
~健康的生活

12.接下来最想去旅行的国家或城市? 为什麼?
~都可以

13. 你为什么要回答这些问题?
~基于礼貌上

14. 你觉得点你名的这个人是什麼样的个性?
~豪爽

15.什麼时候觉得孤独?
~夜晚

16.最近一次掉眼泪是?
~不知道

17.想对点你名的人说的话？
~你可以的

18.家人重要还是伴侣重要?
~一样重要

19.你希望点你名的人成为你的?
~永远的朋友

20.你觉得自己五官哪一个最好看?
～没有

被我点名的：
1.不
2.想
3.嘛
4.烦
5.人
6.家
7.o
8. k
??

this week

2009-09-20T09:50:00.002+08:00

a lots of things happened during this week.

Monday
a bloody bk exam just simply sucked off my blood and soul.
after the bk then history came along. wow man, u cant imagine how pathetic my brain is.
it just keep on screwed and screwed my lil neuron cells... poor lil guys~
but luckily, i ended up with satisfied answer for all the questions...

Tuesday
an art test din seems any harmful for all of us, so a light breakfast at Uma-Rani with classmate. but what a surprise is, its started rained cats and dogs after v reached the mamak... what a cool morning. bad things haven ended up like this, during the exam time, what i can say is whole class just moving around and talking like there were no teachers keep their eyes on us. so as a result our supervise teacher, MR SEI MALAO NICKY CHIN just fXXked up. apparently he seems joked to us but he is serious this time. i din realize that moment,hence, i just said the F word to him... and wat next, scolded lar, dude.... sighed... then i missed the Mc value lunch at midvalley... duh~ its just 1501 shown on their clock, but its 1458 that time... what a bad patch... while i was having my expensive Big Mac, I bit off my lips and started to bled... wtf, today isnt Friday why it just like a Freaky Friday...damn it... an empty storyline movie, Gamer just took off my seven ringgit... jesus... headed back home to prepare for the next outing, steamboat(spelling rite??)..
what a relief is, the steamboat dinner just fun and nice.... so, frenz when will be the next?? mooncake festival celebration??

Wednesday
its suppose a boring stupid school day after the exam, everyone still in sleeping mode due to last night dinner... but its an extraordinary for me and our school. why??? because there were two wacko india sons of a bitch just rise their knife or katana like stuff and chopped on ppl. but wat funny is, they did it without and motive, maybe they just want to practice. ya, like what idioms says, practise make perfect. they kinda understand some sort of idioms like this, well, this is the result of One Malaysia. what a poor guy who got chopped, actually i din know and supposed din involved in this rescuing thing but its the fate who lead me towards the casualty bloodstains, u know as a first aider, v pay attention full times,as what St. John taught me. hei frenz, this poor guys wounded injuries seriously deep. the cuts just torn his flesh and exposed to our eyes, man i saw bones... wtf, my hand just shivered because the injuries areas just too wide, and i dont know how to dressing for him... hence, v sent him to hospital... well, i think he will recover soon under GM hospital... god bless him...

Thursday
technically, its a boring day. why bk lesson drove me mad and frustrated (i think not just me, whole class feel the same too). but school announced holidays for five days started from the next day due to Hari Raya under ministry of education . wow, what a accident holidays, but nth planned what to do during holidays. so its boring. after school, v had our MLG meeting at Uma-Rani with new members onwards. hahaha... bout who is he or she i just kept secret... hahaha... what a nice meeting...

Friday
Bored...
figuring why and how could it be.... thinking....

Saturday
supposed to play badminton today, but due to some probs, canceled... then a day with mahjong is the main activity.... what precious is, MLG highest wisdom thinking released this day. so, do think more because v are not child anymore. its time to discover your life, and what does life means to you and your future... a day ended up with rains(again)...

this is the week of afengz life, yours???

yo～ half way to go～

2009-09-05T19:00:00.002+08:00

my trial exam remain half way to go~
what a pathetic to those paper v using to exam, so dude out there who are doing their whatever exam pls do it well and score with flying colors or else those tree who sacrifice will come to take your life~ hohohoh~
just joking but really have to study hard a~ if not waste time and money. u know time and tide wait for no men~ kakakaz
kinda siaoz lately~ those fXXking subjects drive me nutzzz~
i'm glad that these fXXking subjects passed. Congratz me~
but there are some annoying subjects waiting for me, oh jesus~
nvm, i think it cant stop me because i'm unstoppable~ hohoho~
afengz mad jor~
hohohoh~

a lost in deep mind

2009-08-29T22:06:00.002+08:00

a major lost in deep mind.
[Mayday~Mayday~ calling control, Black Hawk was shoot by enemy.]
(seems childish.)
i cant even concentrated in my study although exam is on next Wednesday.
i knew it will be holy shit if i dont start know but i dont feel like bend over backwards to bookS.
i'm nearly fly off the handle at my bookS.
i hope my laziness will be a flash in the pan, so that i can re-take my bookS to study~
i think i'm totally a wacko now, i just dont know jack shit about where to start my study~
come on dude~ u need to keep a stiff upper lip to face the bookS.
study is not a fine kettle of fish~
study~ i love u bookS...
BOOKS!!!!!! I wont leave u in the lurch!!!!!!!!

报应

2009-08-20T19:36:00.002+08:00

世界上真的有报应。
真的！！！
因为有某某人在别人（a）背后吓人，然后弄痛人。某某人内疚十分。
哪懂，某某人在第二天却被别人（b）以其之道还于某人。
真天意弄人啊！！呜呼哀哉！！
呜呼哀哉！！

141

2009-08-18T21:07:00.000+08:00

《如果你也听说》 张惠妹

作词：李焯雄 作曲：周杰伦 

我发现站了好久 不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我 再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可 委屈却没有人诉说
夜半信仰丛白剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和 舍不得 又无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我
对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔

许多话题关于我 就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默 其实反而显得做作
夜半信仰丛白剥落 拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候 想你更多

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和 舍不得 要无可奈何

如果你也听说 会不会相信我
对流言会附和 还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔

如果你也听说 有没有想过我
想普通交朋友 还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多 冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我 胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我 你会想到什么

the penguin

2009-08-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

do u know that the Emperor Penguin encounters another stressful condition on deep dives —markedly increased pressure of up to 40 times that of the surface, which in most other terrestrial organisms would cause barotrauma. The bones of the penguin are solid rather than air-filled, which eliminates the risk of mechanical barotrauma. However, it is unknown how the species avoids the effects of nitrogen-induced decompression sickness.

While diving, the Emperor Penguin's oxygen use is markedly reduced, as its heart rate is reduced to as low as five beats per minute and non-essential organs are shut down, thus facilitating longer dives. Its haemoglobin and myoglobin are able to bind and transport oxygen at low blood concentrations; this allows the bird to function with very low oxygen levels that would otherwise result in loss of consciousness.

i wish i can be like the Emperor Penguin because they did not polluted the earth with low oxygen adoption respiration system~ and the male do hatchlings eggs!!!
father is cool~
for more info pls refer this link.

small matter 1

2009-08-18T20:35:00.001+08:00

small matter 1
just wanna apologize for this afternoon~
sorry~

=the end=

thanks for the co-operation

2009-08-18T19:05:00.003+08:00

through out this year,
thanks u all for the co-operation.
without you all, i cant be a good vice member-in-charge.
when the 29th committee dismissed, it just weak my heart.
but at the same time i'm in a cloud nine mood because all u had grown up,
yup~ u all are bravo.
remember, u all are marvelous.
can u see the smile in the photo??
it represent our joyful, happiness , sweat and tears that v gained.
its [the st john home], i bet there are not much society like us.
its a special and heart warmth society. cant denied~
i love u all~

平行线

2009-08-08T23:27:00.002+08:00

平行线。
当习惯变成自然,一切都顺其所欲。
习惯了，让。
或
习惯了让。
“自我保护机制” 开启与否？？
平行线会不会有斜率的时候？？
惑也。

time and tides wait for no men

2009-08-08T00:14:00.002+08:00

as tittle,
time and tides wait for no men,
but wait for women??
who knows??
but the truth is, time is precious.
so afengz pls pls pls, i beg you here to work hard for you coming exam.
dont be a nasty one.
if not i will let the car crash on u over and over again.
remember, study hard.
no doubt, study!!!!!!

recently

2009-08-06T21:10:00.002+08:00

recently, school was ordered to be closed due to the raising amount of fever ppl~
sigh... in order to fulfill our abruptly "holidays",
lots of homework were given out and exams on school reopen week.
wat a busy week will be, but i used two days to get on our class graduate clip.
so， only a few days less for me to finish homework and prepare for the coming test.
notwithstanding busy will be my pet phrase in this couple of months, but trust me,it will change.
i dont want to be a nasty ppl nor a irritating ppl.
as a conclusion, Letting nature take its cours.
rite???

乱，电力。

2009-07-31T23:18:00.002+08:00

乱了～
又开始乱了，没有理由的乱了起来。
没了～
没电力了，就快崩溃了。
等待释放的机会。
机遇赶快来。
要撑不住了。
我要电源！！！